Saturday, July 23, 2011

Driving on bittersweet lane

Last night we recieved some unexpected visitors. Bruce's brother J and family arrived at around 8:30 in the evening! They are on their way to California because they are moving there. He is in the army and is being transfered back home (the Coys are from Cali).

We are so happy for them because that's exactly what they wanted and at the same time it's kind of sad because they were the ones that lived the closest to us. They were only 7 hours away, ok it's not thaaaat close but consider that my family lives in Mexico City and Bruce's parents live 15 hours away in California. So a 7 hour drive to spend time with family wasn't bad at all!

We love spending time with them. It's so perfect, the kids are awesome, the guys have a blast and I never laugh so much as when they are together and us girls just love each other! We are so thankful for them and excited that they get to live by the beach. God's been good to them! Can't wait to drive to Cali for Christmas!

Ps Have I mentioned that I hate the feeling of an empty house after everybody leaves?

Thursday, July 14, 2011

No, I'm not, but it's ok

So I'm not pregnant but it's all good. I'm learning to wait, trust and live right this moment. Count my blessings and not worry about what I don't or could have. God is God and I am not waiting stinks but I have Him.

"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

10 things I am thankful for:
  1. Salvation, because of Jesus I get to have eternal life!
  2. Jesus, He is the best!
  3. Bruce, a lot of people out there wish they had found their life mate so I'm not going to take him for granted!
  4. Family, I love them!
  5. Food, it's delicious and yep taken for granted sometimes too.
  6. My job, it's been a blessing I know also a lot of people would kill to have my job so as much as I dislike it I'm thankful and try to make the best out of it (sometimes).
  7. Bruce's job, you have no idea how much I feared he wouldn't find a job he loved (besides firefighting, scaryyyy), but he loves it and is growing in it and he is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G at it!
  8. The sun, since I started running I'm rocking a nice tan!
  9. My doggies, they bring tons of fun times, smiles and happiness to my life.
  10. My bed, I love sleeping on it, it's sooo comfy!
Life is good!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011


On Sunday my husband was reading my blog and he looked at me in a kind of concerned way. Later I asked him what that was all about, he said it was about the pictures and tickers I had added to my blog. He was concerned that I had added them because I haven't gotten over it or I am just holding on to my babies in a creepy unhealthy way.

So I got to explaining him that it is not the case. I mean it still hurts at times and I get teary when I think about what would be but I AM healing. The reason why I decided to put up those pictures and tickers is deeper. Since I read "Heaven is for real" I realised how real our babies are. They ARE persons, they ARE in Heaven, they ARE now part of our story, they ARE as important as any other kids we will have. So I did it as a memorial, as a way to remember them and (assuming they know or Jesus tells them what is going on here on earth) let them know that mommy and daddy love them.

There it is, I hope you don't judge and if you've lost a baby and are reading this that this will help you rest in the assurance that you will meet your baby one day!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Dear time,

I would really really really appreciate if for just this next week and a half you could pass by a little faster! What? You want to know why? Well you see, there is a VERY GOOD possibility that I could be pregnant. It's too early for symptoms and I don't want to pee on a stick before I actually miss my period which is not for another week and a half. I know I have been selfish in thinking that I don't want to have a baby right now and stuff but the truth is I'm getting anxious! I want to know! And I know I would love it if I were! I know everything is in God's hands and it's ok if I'm not but this waiting time is not my favorite.

Now I have to confess I am a little nervous because once I find out, if I AM pregnant then I will want the first three months to go by fast just to be sure that I won't loose this one but nothing is for sure anyway so I guess I will just turn to the one that holds my life in His hands and rest in the knowledge that He is in control over every single thing that happens in my life.

So time: take your time because He is in control of you too and He is never early and never late!